why did you move from Southern California to Amsterdam five years ago? what is the reason behind it? don't you have the freedom and the opportunity there in USA or you do not know how to manage your own life and need someone to do that for you? if you choose my last question then I certainly understand why you choose to come and live here in the Netherlands.
I have been in USA almost 70% of all the united countries specially California and I love USA, I wish I was in USA all this unfortunate years that I spend most of my life here in the Netherlands, the reason why I was so long here in the Netherlands not because I chose it knowingly, but I was deceived after so many promises, I was too good and naif then to understand, I was misled and deceived, and thus I was stuck in serious problems and I struggled all by myself to at least solve my problems and I did solve, but on the cost of many years of my life, I did not have any other option at that moment during of procedure. Keep always smiling inside out and keep it Gold inside you.
John